So I've been feeling really restless and stressed out lately. Some to do with classes, but a lot to do with other stuff...
Anyway the last few times I felt restless like this I did some pretty stupid stuff. For example, I helped my friends break into our high school at 2 in the morning and set 700 crickets loose in the halls. Well, more specifically the freshman hall. Then the time after that I got my nose pierced. Then I dyed my hair like, 5 times this summer.
So I think the lesson that I've learned from all that is that I need to find a healthier way to work off all this pent-up stressful energy I have. I'm just not quite sure how. As much as I wish it were it's not something I can channel into classes or schoolwork. I wish I could do that but I can't because when I have all this restless energy I just feel like I need to not be cooped up anymore. It just makes me feel like I need to go out and do something – hence the nose-piercing and hair-dying.
I don't know...honestly I wish I could just jump on a horse right now and ride. I can forget everything when we (me and the horse) just fly. There's no better high in the world (not that I've ever been high, I just can't imagine anything that can take a person to a higher state of euphoria than that).
Maybe I'll figure out something to do with myself soon. I hope so. I just no that I can't wait for the shoe to drop anymore.
Peace and love,
Caitlin
You wrote about it -- that helps define how you feel and brought up an important realization: you need to DO something. Sometimes a five-minute walk can help. Sometimes just sitting somewhere on campus and noticing things. Sometimes taking a camera and snapping away any and all shots that catch your eye. Sometimes ... well sometimes anything other than things you've tried - piercings, hair dyeing, etc. PROVIDED what you do is safe, legal, and not harmful to others -- including crickets. ;-)
ReplyDeleteWe didn't break or steal anything, promise! And honestly we saved the crickets from a horrible death. They were going to be used as fishing bait. Instead they just got swept outside and were set free(: however, we had to go through some pretty awful legal stuff. But it's all over now. Besides, most of the people in the county thought it was hilarious. It even made the news in South Carolina.
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